Let depression set in

Today I have felt like I'm living in a dream, everything is foggy. I can feel you forgetting me and it hurts. I'm so numb. I don't know what to do anymore. I just want to crawl in a ball and disappear. I've only got out of bed twice today. I just want to lay here forever. I want you to understand but you don't want to listen, you should atleast let me explain before you just push me away and if you still feel that way after, then fine, leave. :/